Every time my phone rings I jump to answer it quickly. I thought by Wednesday I would have some good news to share, but alas, no. My surgeon just answered my email, and told me the pathology report on my cancer is not back yet. He added, "I still think it's favorable." Oh, I hope and pray he is right! All of you reading this who have gone thru cancer treatment probably understand the anxiety. As I wrote in an earlier blog, this pathology report is not a 100% guarantee my cancer has not spread, but it's darn close to that. So it looks like Thursday. And yes, every time the phone rings, I'll be jumping for it.
One of the biggest challenges why I wait is handling this down time, and rest. Monday I over did it. All of you who know me fairly well are probably shaking your heads because you know that's no big surprise. I went out in the cold twice on Monday for 20-minutes walks. Felt great the first time. Not so good the second time. By evening I was whooped. Not exhausted, but an overall weary feeling. Tuesday I was determined to get more rest during the day. I took two naps, and ended up couldn't sleep later that night. Today I decided to limit myself to one nap. So far...so good. I feel as normal today as I've felt since before surgery last Thursday morning. Even had the chance to entertain my 5-year old grandson, Samuel IV. I must be feeling better if I can do that!
My wounds/incisions are healing well, and I can move around the waist without much problem. Good news there.
I want to share a quick exchange I had via Facebook with the wife of a man who just found out he has prostate cancer. She wanted to know why I chose surgery over radiation. I told her in my opinion, the choice of treatment is very individual. There is nothing cookie cutter about dealing with prostate cancer. Everyone and their circumstances are different.
I told her in my case, I had my father's situation weighing heavily on my decision. I watched him fight prostate cancer for 17-years. He did not have his prostate removed. He later wished it was out. My wife especially did not like the idea of leaving cancer, however small, in me, and waiting to see if radiation worked or not. Her opinion is golden to me, and I agreed. My doctors, more than one, also thought I was an excellent candidate for having my cancer CURED: the cancer we think was caught very early, I am relatively young (54), my gleason score is 6 (cancer not aggressive), but my psa had really jumped in the last year. The thought was my cancer was hopefully contained in the prostate. Remove it, and remove all the cancer. Surgery with prostate cancer is not for everyone. It's the road we have chosen, and must live with.